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Mind Complex
01:13
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These voices in my head
Have lasted for years
I've been asking myself
When will they stop?
I am filth
Mental complexity draining the fucking life out of me
When will it all just end?
My fucking demons are
Laughing at me now
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Stopwatch
02:30
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Someday I will be awoken
Out of this sleep
And I’m afraid because time will not stop
I feel so much pressure in my head
I am blinded
Blinded with daydreams of death
I'm feeling these thoughts consuming me,
I've gone insane
I won't be saved
Not this time
Fuck anxiety
This angst has taken over me
I let it all go away
I've lost myself
You just don't understand me
Underestimated my time,
I lost touch with myself along the way
I've been building up this hate for far too long
My condition leaves me no longer headstrong,
I'm lost and trapped inside my own head
Try to escape it, fuck it
Oh, fuck it
Oh, fuck this place
I have broken what's left of me
It's time I let go of this agony
& now I turn to nothing
My life crumbles, I'm watching myself die
Demonization of a peaceful mind
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Breacher
02:19
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I'm so lost
I've convinced myself that I'm already dead
Died inside with no cost
I'm just so sick in the head!
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel so much pain?
All I feel is hate
Nothing but pure blood
anger running through my veins
So much anger
So much hate
So much pain
Fuck me
Fuck me & my mental instability
Fuck me, fuck you, fuck everybody
So to hell with me
I'm so fed up with myself
I've crossed too many lines
Nobody has time for this shit
Neither do I
I will rot
Inside my own coffin
Custom just for me
Breacher
Shit
I'm so sick of this damage that I’ve caused for myself
For myself
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I stand alone in this room
It is empty, I am empty
Fuck
I stand alone as I try to catch my breath
I am pushed so far below
I struggle to catch my breath
Love fucked me up
This is what has broken me
My fear of ever being alone
Only I can know how this feels
Being shattered into pieces
I tried to put my heart back together
I can't go on like this
You've broken my heart
I will leave you here in this place
Move on, one last time
I need to step out of the cycle
Just leave me alone in the end
I've come undone
Threw me down, stuck in a rut
Dragged me down and down
Into the dark abyss
Don't you look at me
Don't you fucking talk to me
You know who I am, and who I wanna be
I don't belong here anyway
Get out of my face
Get out of my way
I will fucking move on
Carry on without you
Carry on without you
With my life
I stand alone
I stand alone
You left me
You left me wounded
Wounded
Wound
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Pale Skin
00:45
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Kill Me
02:55
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These days they need to change
Pushing for a difference
While nobody ever listens,
Now I just need some space
How can I be true to myself
While feeling so low and strange?
My emotions are disconnected
I must find meaning
I've lost all control
Oh fuck!
What have I done?
Where is my control?
Where did it go?
Where did I go wrong?
I've been having some trouble
searching for who I am
I lost myself again!
I'm just a man
With nothing to lose
With much to gain
I'm sick of suffocating within my own skin
I'm sick of suffocating within my own skin
I must find where I belong
I need to find myself
Before I go back home
Go back home
Left dead and beaten
Crooked spine
Teeth rotted and eaten
I'm fucking worthless
At this point I'm useless
Sometimes I sleep on a bed of nails
The earth slowly spins
Gravity pushing my body further in
I'm gone
Kill me
Save me
End this pain to start a new beginning
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